haiku

indigo pooling
icy, but smiling, cool
your gentle blue eyes.

knowing

"There is so much that you don't even know about me, where do I even begin..."

things

So I've kept out of here for awhile and have been trying to do life without the internet a bit. I think it has been a good thing and I've evened out my overload of internet time to real life time. It's easy to get over involved with people's lives who you have never even met, but it's definitely nice to have net mates there for different times in your life. The blog especially can be a big outlet for creativity and thinking through things and I like the interaction and connection.

News... well I've been doing lots of thinking and some action. Lots of work. Seem to be working almost too much, which can be a bit overwhelming at times. I do love my job, but wonder if it is all worthwhile. If I do get enough joy out of it.

Friends are great and life is good amongst them. Love life is totally on the up. Have been seeing a guy for over a month and it's going well, things are going smoothly and may even continue that way. Which is scary, exciting. We shall see. I don't think I have had this much fun with anyone ever though. He makes me laugh, melt and think. I really like him.

That's about all the news. Will post some more tidbits soon. Am loving the summery sunshine and enjoying long walks around Londonia. Even walked alllll the way to Picadilly Circus on Saturday from my flat. I couldn't believe how quick it was - about one and a half hours.

Mia needs

Mia needs a loving and supportive family to provide structure.

Mia needs some FUN.

Mia needs just a little bit of make up.

Mia needs a cute outfit.

Mia needs a little more than a fairy godmother.

Mia needs your help.

Mia needs a job.

Mia needs open lines of communication.

I googled 'Mia needs'... these were the answers...

statuses i wish i could write

Mia wishes she had someone to cuddle
Mia has a giant zit on her chin
Mia can't stop coughing
Mia wants to be bent over and ... well I'm sure you can fill in the rest of the details
Mia wishes her doona would cover her completely and envelope her in a world of pillows and sleep for as many days as she could count
Mia needs a large vodka tonic
Mia is lazy

Mia should stop talking in the third person

holidays

Hooray! It's almost half term. I can breathe out a little and have a bit of a rest. I've been so busy at work, lots of stuff on and the kids are getting antsy. They need a break. At the moment I am busy booking holidays and hoping that my passport will come back from the home office with a brand new visa inside in the next few weeks.

Then off to see some Portuguese sunshine!

concern

To whom it may concern,

I am so confused right now, my head is all in a spin. My feelings feel all mangled up. Sometimes I wonder why we have to grow up, 'cause it seemed so easy when you were little. Then I remember that it's easier to remember the good things about the past. The things that didn't hurt.

I wish I could just go to sleep and all these nasty feelings would leave my heart and I would feel at ease again.

I'm so tired.

Yours truly,

Mia